Thursday, February 6, 2014

Happy and sad at the same time.

How is it possible to feel happy and sad at one time? 

As I sit here at my 911 desk and answer call after call, speak to my officers via radio and clickity clack away on my keyboard, my little tiny human is having a gymnastics party inside. 

I can feel arms and legs ALL OVER my stomach. It's so weird that one minute he's punching away on one side and then BAM the other side gets kneed. I wish I could explain how it feels. Some movements are painful but the great majority are like bubbles or gas. The rolling over or changing of positions are what hurt the most. In one of my many trips to the bathroom last night, he moved to the left and you could see how lopsided my belly was. Standing up straight took physical effort and when I laid back down, he settled back into his original transverse position and proceeded to kick for another 30 minutes. I think he was pissed because I had gotten up and stretched out some in an effort to straighten his little butt back into a comfortable position. 

At my next OB appointment, I'm going to ask about his position and find out when they will start checking for breach or head down. 

Anyways, I got sidetracked. As I'm sitting at work enjoying his little antics, I realize that this happy time will end soon. As much as I'm looking forward to meeting my son, I am honestly going to miss these moments when little man is all mine. I'm the only one who can feel him and hold him right now. It makes me sad that the pregnancy is going so fast and will end soon. Even though I've had some rough times, I've enjoyed it for the most part. (Remind me of this statement in 10 weeks when I'm swollen and uncomfortable all the time.) 

Until then I'm going to watch my belly bounce a little while longer and imagine what the little guy is doing inside. 

2 comments:

  1. My baby is 7 months old now and it feels like just yesterday I was pregnant with her and enjoying those precious kicks! It really does go fast!!

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