I know it's still early. I know the BFN that I got this morning could be too early to tell but let's be honest, we all know I'm a pessimist and I believe this cycle is already a bust.
I'm off work today. I kinda wish I was working so I could keep my mind off of it.
Right now, I'm bummed. The anger and general suckage of life will come later.
If this cycle is a BFN, this next month is going to be hard. I will fill y'all in on it later if it comes to that.
Monday, April 29, 2013
Saturday, April 27, 2013
Well...what is that?
Ever have that moment, when you've been monitoring your cycles for so long that you know when a headache is progesterone increased headache, your bowels coincide with certain CDs and you can almost predict the hour you will start spotting?
No? Just me.
Someone answer this riddle. WHY? How is it possible that I have never spotted before 12 DPO before? BUT here it is 10 DPO and guess what? Yep. Spotting.
Son of a Kitten SPOTTING.
Now, I could be one of those constantly hopeful and wishful morons who thinks this is Implantation Bleeding. But, we all know I am a Negative Nancy. My mind does not look at a half full glass. My mind sees it as a half empty glass and the sudden urge to pee while on a 911 call.
Sidenote, nothing will make you more aware of your bladder than a 911 call lasting over 5 minutes. It never fails. If a call is going to become something that you have to sit through for the 2 hour duration, you will feel the need to pee about 5 minutes into the call.
Don't think that I am above telling the Shift Commander to tell his boys to cool their dicks with traffic stops so I can take a potty break.
Totally different topic, which has no transition, except that I said dicks in the previous sentence and my mind went, OH WAIT SPERM!
I don't think I ever included DH's SA results from the IUI. I meant to but I don't completely understand how it works so I asked the geniuses at TB and this is what I learned.
DH results:
Count: 77 mil
Volume: 3.5 ml
Motility: 51
Total motility: 137 x10 6th/ml
Post wash concentration: 234 x10 6th/ml
Post wash motile: 43
Post wash total motile: 40x 10 6th/ml
Here is the reply from KatiB who explains it the best.
"If his original count was 77mil/ml times 3.5ml then his original count total was 269,500,000. (ie 269.5 mil). They spun it around so the bad swimmers fell to the bottom and skimmed the good fellas off the top.
It sounds like they ended up putting 0.6 ml back in you, which based on the post wash concentration 234mil/ml times 0.6 is 140 million sperm of which 43% was motile (140mil times .43 = 42 million swimming sperm). If I am wrong and it was .4ml put back in you then it's 93 million sperm at 43% motility which still equals 40 million swimmers.
Either way - that is an amazing post wash!"
I wanted to add those numbers in here at some point, because I will eventually forget them. That's one of the reasons I really like blogging about this journey. This site helps me remember what has happened day in and day out.
I will make you guys a promise. If this cycle gets a BFP, then I promise to tell you guys how we got those amazing numbers and swimmers this cycle. Trust me. It will make you chuckle.
No? Just me.
Someone answer this riddle. WHY? How is it possible that I have never spotted before 12 DPO before? BUT here it is 10 DPO and guess what? Yep. Spotting.
Son of a Kitten SPOTTING.
Now, I could be one of those constantly hopeful and wishful morons who thinks this is Implantation Bleeding. But, we all know I am a Negative Nancy. My mind does not look at a half full glass. My mind sees it as a half empty glass and the sudden urge to pee while on a 911 call.
Sidenote, nothing will make you more aware of your bladder than a 911 call lasting over 5 minutes. It never fails. If a call is going to become something that you have to sit through for the 2 hour duration, you will feel the need to pee about 5 minutes into the call.
Don't think that I am above telling the Shift Commander to tell his boys to cool their dicks with traffic stops so I can take a potty break.
Totally different topic, which has no transition, except that I said dicks in the previous sentence and my mind went, OH WAIT SPERM!
I don't think I ever included DH's SA results from the IUI. I meant to but I don't completely understand how it works so I asked the geniuses at TB and this is what I learned.
DH results:
Count: 77 mil
Volume: 3.5 ml
Motility: 51
Total motility: 137 x10 6th/ml
Post wash concentration: 234 x10 6th/ml
Post wash motile: 43
Post wash total motile: 40x 10 6th/ml
Here is the reply from KatiB who explains it the best.
"If his original count was 77mil/ml times 3.5ml then his original count total was 269,500,000. (ie 269.5 mil). They spun it around so the bad swimmers fell to the bottom and skimmed the good fellas off the top.
It sounds like they ended up putting 0.6 ml back in you, which based on the post wash concentration 234mil/ml times 0.6 is 140 million sperm of which 43% was motile (140mil times .43 = 42 million swimming sperm). If I am wrong and it was .4ml put back in you then it's 93 million sperm at 43% motility which still equals 40 million swimmers.
Either way - that is an amazing post wash!"
I wanted to add those numbers in here at some point, because I will eventually forget them. That's one of the reasons I really like blogging about this journey. This site helps me remember what has happened day in and day out.
I will make you guys a promise. If this cycle gets a BFP, then I promise to tell you guys how we got those amazing numbers and swimmers this cycle. Trust me. It will make you chuckle.
Friday, April 26, 2013
A post about nothing
This post is literally about nothing.
I have nothing to report. No phantom symptoms. No weird boob growth problems. No veins popping out or stomach wanting to hurl up my favorite coffee shop sandwich.
I did have a headache yesterday, but I'm not imagining that. That witch was real.
I'm still not sure when I will test. I could test tomorrow. It's early and I've seen people get accurate results on 10 DPO but I've also seen others not get a BFP until a 12 DPO or later.
Plus, I have a 1 year olds birthday party to go to tomorrow. I don't want to be bummed out by a BFN. So I may wait??
I will at least test Monday, if there is no spotting. If I start spotting I won't test at all. I hate the double confirmation of "oh look you're bleeding yet still hope to get a BFP? Don't you feel stupid!"
I have nothing to report. No phantom symptoms. No weird boob growth problems. No veins popping out or stomach wanting to hurl up my favorite coffee shop sandwich.
I did have a headache yesterday, but I'm not imagining that. That witch was real.
I'm still not sure when I will test. I could test tomorrow. It's early and I've seen people get accurate results on 10 DPO but I've also seen others not get a BFP until a 12 DPO or later.
Plus, I have a 1 year olds birthday party to go to tomorrow. I don't want to be bummed out by a BFN. So I may wait??
I will at least test Monday, if there is no spotting. If I start spotting I won't test at all. I hate the double confirmation of "oh look you're bleeding yet still hope to get a BFP? Don't you feel stupid!"
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Good news
Progesterone is 11.4!!!
Squeeeeee!!!! Yay for my expensive-rip-me-a-new-one medication.
In reality, my Femara isn't expensive compared to other IF meds, but I'm still miffed that I could have gotten it for A LOT LESS.
Squeeeeee!!!! Yay for my expensive-rip-me-a-new-one medication.
In reality, my Femara isn't expensive compared to other IF meds, but I'm still miffed that I could have gotten it for A LOT LESS.
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
P4 test tomorrow
You would think that when I'm on night shift that I would have more free time to write a blog entry.
Nope. I suck when I'm on night shift. I basically sleep the entire time I'm not working 12 hours. By the end of the rotation, my house is a disaster and DH is rummaging for clean underwear. Luckily he knows how to take care of himself an is sweet enough to do his and my laundry so I don't have to go to work naked.
My mind isn't capable of thinking much right now, but I will be posting an entry soon for NAIW National Infertility Awareness Week. I just need more time to get it together.
Tomorrow is my P4 test. Remember, the goal is above 10, but I would love to see it higher than that.
I should know my results tomorrow afternoon. After that, it's another week of waiting. I will probably test earlier than that, somewhere around 12 dpo.
Nope. I suck when I'm on night shift. I basically sleep the entire time I'm not working 12 hours. By the end of the rotation, my house is a disaster and DH is rummaging for clean underwear. Luckily he knows how to take care of himself an is sweet enough to do his and my laundry so I don't have to go to work naked.
My mind isn't capable of thinking much right now, but I will be posting an entry soon for NAIW National Infertility Awareness Week. I just need more time to get it together.
Tomorrow is my P4 test. Remember, the goal is above 10, but I would love to see it higher than that.
I should know my results tomorrow afternoon. After that, it's another week of waiting. I will probably test earlier than that, somewhere around 12 dpo.
Friday, April 19, 2013
CD 15 / 2 DPO
Nothing new to report as far as TTC is concerned. I'm in the waiting period.
Right now, I'm waiting for 7DPO to get P4 tested. Hopefully I responded as well as last month to the 5 mg of Femara. After that it's another week to go in the 2WW.
Tonight begins another set of night shifts. With all the tragedies going on in the country in Boston and Texas, I will be honest and say that I'm not really looking forward to going back to work. It doesn't take more than a few minutes back at the console to forgot this feeling and get back in the groove again. Sometimes I think 7 day breaks are too long to be off from work.
Stay safe out there. Take care of yourselves.
Right now, I'm waiting for 7DPO to get P4 tested. Hopefully I responded as well as last month to the 5 mg of Femara. After that it's another week to go in the 2WW.
Tonight begins another set of night shifts. With all the tragedies going on in the country in Boston and Texas, I will be honest and say that I'm not really looking forward to going back to work. It doesn't take more than a few minutes back at the console to forgot this feeling and get back in the groove again. Sometimes I think 7 day breaks are too long to be off from work.
Stay safe out there. Take care of yourselves.
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
IUI 1 DONE!
IUI 1 is complete!
According to Dr A, DHs counts were great. I believe he said it was 77 million, which further confirms DHs self proclaimed Super Sperm name.
The US revealed the collapsed area showing where I just ovulated. He said based on that, it looks like I O'ed this morning and in his words, "Our timing couldn't be better!"
In a moment of teaching he told the medical students that I had excellent mucous. One of them leaned over and said, "I bet you never thought you would like to hear that." Haha nope. She's right. It's the little things that make us IFers happy.
The procedure itself doesn't hurt but it is uncomfortable like a pap. Honestly the dildo cam US is more uncomfortable than this. But I think that's because Dr A has trouble finding my left ovary every time. He probes around in there waving the wand like he just doesn't care.
Dr. A to students: "I'm trying to find her ovary. What is that I am looking at?"
Student: "That's the upper part of the uterus."
Waves wand around inside me like he stirring soup...
Dr. A: "What's this that I am showing right now?"
Me: "That's either my lung or my heart that you've been digging around to find."
They think I'm funny. They laugh while I sit there trying not to fart because apparently your reproductive organs are somewhere near your intestines.
So now we wait. I go in for a progesterone level check next week to see if my O was strong like last month.
Let the 2WW begin!
According to Dr A, DHs counts were great. I believe he said it was 77 million, which further confirms DHs self proclaimed Super Sperm name.
The US revealed the collapsed area showing where I just ovulated. He said based on that, it looks like I O'ed this morning and in his words, "Our timing couldn't be better!"
In a moment of teaching he told the medical students that I had excellent mucous. One of them leaned over and said, "I bet you never thought you would like to hear that." Haha nope. She's right. It's the little things that make us IFers happy.
The procedure itself doesn't hurt but it is uncomfortable like a pap. Honestly the dildo cam US is more uncomfortable than this. But I think that's because Dr A has trouble finding my left ovary every time. He probes around in there waving the wand like he just doesn't care.
Dr. A to students: "I'm trying to find her ovary. What is that I am looking at?"
Student: "That's the upper part of the uterus."
Waves wand around inside me like he stirring soup...
Dr. A: "What's this that I am showing right now?"
Me: "That's either my lung or my heart that you've been digging around to find."
They think I'm funny. They laugh while I sit there trying not to fart because apparently your reproductive organs are somewhere near your intestines.
So now we wait. I go in for a progesterone level check next week to see if my O was strong like last month.
Let the 2WW begin!
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